K.E. Skedgell

T his month has certainly had its ups and downs, and mostly downs. The month started at a good rate, though a bit on the scary side when I was confirmed pregnant. Both me and the Mister both were surprised, scared, and eventually elated about the news that we were to soon have a little one joining us. We started thinking about names and which of us was to have to give up their office (clearly he had to...lol!). However, that pregnancy was not meant to be and ended after seven weeks. Though as disappointing as it was I can't say that I was saddened over it. The embryo never formed and I ended up having a blighted ovum, which the doctor told us isn't unusual, especially for first time pregnancies. If a baby had been there I would have been much more devastated, but there wasn't. What we learned from this pregnancy is that we really would like to have a rug rat after all, even when in the past we both said no kids, it has brought us closer when we were beginning to drift apar...

Loreena McKennitt -- Bonny Portmore Album -- The Visit (1991) O bonny Portmore, I am sorry to see Such a woeful destruction of your ornament tree For it stood on your shore for many's the long day Till the long boats from Antrim came to float it away. O bonny Portmore, you shine where you stand And the more I think on you the more I think long If I had you now as I had once before All the Lords in Old England would not purchase Portmore. All the birds in the forest they bitterly weep Saying, "Where shall we shelter or where shall we sleep?" For the Oak and the Ash, they are all cutten down And the walls of bonny Portmore are all down to the ground. O bonny Portmore, you shine where you stand And the more I think on you the more I think long If I had you now as I had once before All the Lords of Old England would not purchase Portmore.

Sarah McLachlan -- Angel Album -- Surfacing (1997) Spend all your time waiting For that second chance For a break that would make it okay There's always some reason To feel not good enough And it's hard at the end of the day I need some distraction Oh beautiful release Memory seeps from my veins Let me be empty Oh, and weightless and maybe I'll find some peace tonight In the arms of the angel Fly away from here From this dark cold hotel room And the endlessness that you fear You are pulled from the wreckage Of your silent reverie You're in the arms of the angel May you find some comfort here So tired of the straight line And everywhere you turn There's vultures and thieves at your back And the storm keeps on twisting You keep on building the lie That you make up for all that you lack It don't make no difference Escaping one last time It's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees In the arms of...

I haven't posted anything in a while, with the exception of my random songs of the week (of which most are scheduled), because my mind has not been on writing for the past few weeks, for the blog or for my novel. Something happened in my life that is quite life-changing and I haven't been able to think of anything else but that. Well, by the title of my post you ought to have an idea what that is. Two weeks ago I took a test. It came out positive. Took another a week later at the doctor's office. Yup, positive. Yup, I'm pregnant, and at 35 years old it is about time. I'm very excited, nervous and scared shit-less over it. I'm 35, and I'm having my first baby! That is, if everything turns out okay. The past few days have put me on pins and needles. I don't want to say what the reason is, but by my saying that I'm quite scared that my joy may come to an end will give you the idea. I'm a pessimistic person by nature, I suppose it helps me to d...

Jonn Serrie -- Stratos Album -- And The Stars Go With You (1987) Electronic space music that will take you on solar winds across galaxies and to the stars. Or, it'll make you relaxed and sleepy. According to Wikipedia , this, Jonn Serrie's first album And The Stars Go With You , was created in memory of the astronauts who lost their lives in the Space Shuttle Challenger disaster in 1986.

Creedence Clearwater Revival -- Someday Never Comes Album -- Mardi Gras (1972) First thing I remember was askin' papa, "Why?", For there were many things I didn't know. And Daddy always smiled; took me by the hand, Sayin', "Someday you'll understand." CHORUS: Well, I'm here to tell you now each and ev'ry mother's son You better learn it fast; you better learn it young, 'Cause someday never comes. Well, time and tears went by and I collected dust, For there were many things I didn't know. When Daddy went away, he said, "Try to be a man, And someday you'll understand." CHORUS And then, one day in April, I wasn't even there, For there were many things I didn't know. A son was born to me; Mama held his hand, Sayin' "Someday you'll understand." CHORUS Think it was September, the year I went away, For there were many things I didn't know. And I still see him ...